Sunday, 28 June 2009


im a party people are worth more than what they seem to be..deyr not wild people by any means,
ka on every drop of alcohol; every dance to long live music onto endless ciggarettes or cigga-"weed".
understand this..make me alive kos' fuck man,"im broken...

Friday, 26 June 2009

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

is it true?

In your arms I feel right at home, That's the feeling I ain't felt before. If you're feeling the same way then let me know, Cause there's nothing worse than being in love alone. Is it true that I'm not the only one? Is it true that you're just having fun with my heart? I need an answer Is it true Is it true You're my Angel that was sent to earth. In your eyes I see my future. I can't be without you so it's got to work. Goodbyes not an option so don't say a word. Is it true that I'm not the only one? Is it true that you're just having fun with my heart? I need an answer Is it true Is it true I've never been a victim of love before So I’m not sure what I should be looking for But I know the signs are in my face Hope it's not to late to change Your mind and make you wanna stay Is it true that I'm not the only one? Is it true that you're just having fun with my heart? I need an answer Is it true Is it true Is it true that I'm not the only one? Is it true that you're just having fun with my heart? I need an answer Is it true Is it true If you just can't tell me the truth it wasn't real when you said I love you.

Tuesday, 23 June 2009


this is gonna be random. and only a couple of people would clock on who im talking about and what my drift is about. i ent on talking in proper grammer right now. LOL. kos' im fast typing and shit. but yerh.. kos' i've got alot of time in my hands. immuh take my time and be content about things and just think back to where i realised how fucked people are in the heads. overal the outcome of situations. ive always looked on the positive side of it. it ent ever the end of the pain i feel but there are always gonna be happy times for me.. you may not understand some of the stuff i may have written on this blog, but i am a difficult person. & im over stubborn in many cases. but can you really blame me?

who's the first man a girl supposed to have a relationship with? not particularly blaming you. but your the one who's suppose to hold me up till i can walk on my own? your the one who was supposed to calm me down every time i panicked things wasnt gonna be okay but instead you went off in your own outbursts and made everythign worser. and you blame why i talk back? you blame her for taking thr rights away in loving me and george? you made us suffer for kos' you were. how selfish can you get. you know only little about me. for past nearly 18 years. ive not once thot about one good in you. im trying. but im tired.

Monday, 22 June 2009

he's just not into you..

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cut your losses and don't waste your time.why stay in some weird dating limbo when you can move on to what will surely be better territory?don't want to hear it? fine. Here's the answer you're looking for, "hang in there, baby. he's not the loser everybody's telling you he is.if you wait and keep your mouth shut and call at exactly the right time and anticipate his moods and have no expectations about communication or your own sexual needs, you can have him!"but please don't be surprised if he dumps you or continues to drag you through a completely unsatisfying relationship..
he will always be able to play the "friend" card on you. he only has to be responsible for the expectations of a friend, rather than the the far greater expectations of a boyfriend. he's got the ultimate situation: a great friend with all the benefits of a girlfriend, whom he can see or not see whenever he wants to. he may be one of your closest friends, but I'm sorry to say ... as a boyfriend, he's just not that into you..

Sunday, 21 June 2009

my first blog.

chaaa. that was only me tryna be nice. :) in other harsh words init. ABELLA :)
Wow, people seem to gain a confidence boost when they're behind computer screens! Don't be so indirect with your comments! Just be straight up and say something about it! No need to be scared now! Plus, don't be branding names when they're not even true! Where's the evidence? The facts. The figures. Got none? Thought so. Be real! If you got an issue or problem just say it, don't be getting hot-headed and saying things on the top of your head. It's not right. Don't put me in the wrong when I weren't even in it! My actions weren't deliberate to affect you. It's just moving on! What can I do in that situation? Nada. I can't tag along and stay around for that long, could I!
anyway, I needed to get that off my chest! I ent gonna be expecting an apology. sa'll good. life goes on. shud aready get used to knowing that in this generation respect means nothing to most people.dont worry about it init.
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hiiii. :) im gonna make this blog thing a regular thing right now. unfortunately i really haven't got anything better to do with my life; as i'm baby sitting the dearest niece elena. i really haven't done this kinda thing before. but outta curiosity, i clicked on some link on a friends msn personal message and i found that this website was really intresting; this is probably a discreet way in how people can actually get to know the real me; dispite the fact alot of people seem to follow up alot of what they think they know. if your right in the head, you'd stop carrying onto that path and start reading from the realest. its coming from me. not anyone else. im not gonna put this website anywher apart from my p.m and let them have an insight of what people like to call "my bussiness". immuh make my blog quite vague towards people. in doing so, i would like to verify that i ent what people seem to say i am. the way i react towards things, being a continous flirt..being as bitchy, & and theres many more. alot of people may have defined me in thier own words. joke is, i dont really like defining myself. kos' i just am. people seem to assume alot me, they think i dont know. i do. LOL. im gonna give people a chance to read this.. and the reason for being it is to hear my side.let you see through me. and also give a chance for you to know what really goes throo this thick head of mine. i shall keep updating. a chance to know my real deal.

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